Sense and Souls

Why is his sudden and unexpected demise affecting me so much? It feels so much like a personal loss even though there is nothing personal about it. So why? Because he was a good actor? Of course, I liked his acting. But I am not a movie buff, not even his fan. So this can't be the case. Is it because he was a good looking guy, so full of life? Well, that was definitely something that drew a lot of people including me. But that is not strong enough to affect me this deep. Then what is it? Is it because he comes from a family just like any one of us? Maybe yes. His is just like any family of us, with the same old childhood, same old teen stuff. Is it also because he focused on education just like any one of us? Maybe yes. He was a bright student, a successful one if I could say so. With the intellect of a national-level rank holder, an Olympiad topper. His write-ups were things I could relate. Well, some, most of it if not all. A Physics fanatic with the dream of becoming an ast...

Some incidents shake you up to the core. And for a long time. Simply because you feel sad about it, or you can relate to it. Depression, mental health - these are not simply words to feel bad about. They are real, harsh, they shake you up too, and try to throw you away and out in so many ways. As humans we cannot be strong all the time, every single day. We do come across, at some point or the other in life, those moments of intensity when we tend to take some drastic steps, make drastic decisions. At that very point of time, nothing really matters except what you want for your own self. It is the time when you talk directly to the self, one on one, eye to eye. I don't know how many have experienced such moments but I did. And a few times. For different yet related reasons. Reasons that made me question the self. Reasons that shook the self, the very essence of my existence. Reasons that clearly were destroying that very essence. Reasons that made me realize I was losing the self ...